Catchy title, huh?! It’s an approximation of the sound most often coming out of my mouth. Sigh…

Recently one of my WP crew posted about Highly Sensitive People. (I’d link but haven’t figured that out from my phone. Still no computer or internet) It really got me thinking. Especially lately when I seem to be having more trouble handling The King than anyone else in the house does.

I’m still looking for a doctor who will treat him with cannabis. I’ve done research on the different strains and THC/CBD ratios and edible, oil and other products. I could experiment on my own but I’d much rather have a doctor oversee and advise. The King is only nine after all.

His ADHD is still so out of control. He really just can’t be still for more than a minute or two. He bounces all over the place, paces, grinds his teeth, leaves toys laying around as he’s off to another project and insists on my company wherever he’s at. When he asks for something (he is learning more words and verbalizing more) he repeats it five or six times at least and at top volume. 

The sesitive person thing comes into it because all these things he does makes me feel super agitated. It’s like he imparts to me a sense of extreme urgency that stresses me out. Plus his constant motion and messes, the chaos of it, agitates me too. Him, by himself, makes me feel like I’m in a crowded noisy room. I just want to escape. I just want quiet. I just want some order.

I’ve know I was an Empath for a very long time but this Highly Sensitive thing explains a lot of why my environment can affect me.

I’ve got to find a way to calm myself since Ben seems to prefer me to everyone else. His Mama, his Aunty and his godmother can be in the house but he still follows me around.

Sorry for the rambling nature of this post. It’s been difficult to think coherently lately. He’s got the entire Turkey Day week off from school. I’m trying to rest as much as I can now. It’s going to be tough next week.

Okay, rambling, senseless post over ๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜