Its week 15 of Beckie’s mental health series, “Working On Us”. The topic this week is Introversion and/or Isolation. Well, being a Myers-Briggs INFP and being disabled, I can relate to both.
Prompt #1 Questions:
Are you more Isolated or Introverted?
I am introverted by nature and isolated partly by my disability and mostly by choice.
Do you feel that there is a difference between the two?
Definitely a difference.
Being an introvert just means spending more time in your own thoughts, needing quiet time alone. It doesn’t necessarily mean not liking other people or socializing.
Being isolated is being physically alone or feeling emotionally separated from other people.
What are the causes of being Isolated or Introverted?
Introverts are just born that way I think. It’s just the way our brains work.
Isolation can be a choice. I usually prefer being alone. I’m perfectly happy with my own company. I get overwhelmed by crowds, too much energy, too much noise…just too much! Concerts are the only crowds I can handle and I have to have a seat. No standing in “general admission” for me anymore.
I’m also somewhat limited by my disability. I cant socialize like I used to. I spend most of my time lying down.
Does your family/friends/co-workers question your behavior when you crave alone time and/or do not want to be bothered?
I dont have any friends off line. I pulled away from all my work friends when I became disabled and never pursued new friendships.
My family understands my limitations. It makes them sad/bummed out when I cant do things with them.
Have you spoken to a therapist/psychiatrist in regards to being Isolated/Introverted?
No. Neither are a problem for me.
What is a normal day being in your shoes?
No such thing as a normal day with King Ben.
I get up way too early and hope it’s a school day. (If it’s not, I go straight to doing stuff for his lordship.)
After getting Ben ready for school and waving bye to the (say it with me) glorious little yellow school bus, I go lay back down and sleep or read, blog, surf the web. If i have errands, I decide whether to go right away or rest then go. My errands are a monthly doctor appointment to get my pump filled or grocery shopping or stopping by the library to drop off and/or pick up books.
When Ben gets home from school I mostly do things for him. Tape stuff, write stuff, build stuff, open juices, open bags of snacks…basic peasant labor for his lordship.
After he eats, bathes and goes to bed, I lay back down, try to figure out what I’m going to eat and enjoy the quiet. More reading or blog stuff.
After older daughter goes to work, I start getting ready to go to sleep hoping my day won’t start in the wee hours.
If you were ever asked to go to dinner/party, would you go? If not, what kind of excuses have you made up to get out of going?
I dont go out often. I just say no, I’m too tired. I am too tired to do very much and any free time I have, I want to spend alone.
I do occasionally go out to eat or to a concert or whatever with my daughters or my mother.
I dont do parties anymore. I had my fill of them when I was younger.
Prompt #2 What Do you feel when you visualize this picture? (You can write exactly how you feel, or write a poem, poetry, and/or short prose).
I see a poor abandoned Teddy who is waiting for someone to come back for it. This picture makes me feel very sad. Poor Teddy.